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Chapter 4 ~ Sinking Deeper

                     “When the deadness gets easier, you know you’re sinking deeper, becoming dead yourself.”                                                    ~ Lucy Christopher ~                                

Cheerful times were sparse, with the exception of a family vacation to Curacao. Although this, too, ended with me sinkingdeeper2getting drunk and high. Summer came shortly after, along with an experience with LSD, a hallucinogenic drug. Just getting through the day was an arduous task, and I found it necessary to adjust the countless masks I wore. My self-loathing deepened, and I felt devoured be an evil and relentless force.

By my senior year, I was purchasing alcohol on a regular basis, even buying 20 cases of Molson Golden Ale for a class ski trip to Vermont. My downward spiral continued, deeper each passing day, as my drinking snowballed leading to significant repercussions. Not only did I suffer another concussion as a result of my drinking, I was arrested for buying alcohol underage, and I was sexually assaulted once again.